bebop_eyes

I'm far, far away from anything that used to mean anything to me. Any small wistful memory of happiness just makes me feel sad. And longing. It's a New Year, but all that ever makes me feel is that I should be a New Me.
But Santa didn't bring me a Brand New Shiny Parcel containing a New Me this year. Apparently they were all out.

School starts on Monday and I am dreading being with Ms Wilkins for homeroom, ever since I've been a kid she's had it in for me. It's gonna be a nightmare. Lara is in there too though, so at least we can sit and plot to do the bitch in together. LOL.

I really miss James and I didn't think I would. I hope he writes...

"and as she dreamt of teapots sailing past her window - she wished she could just rest in peace...just for a little while...just for a little while...just a little longer before she...tumbled down and woke up, safe in her bed"

Current Music: The Kinks

Tomorrow will be the best Christmas ever. Simply because I will not be spending it with my parents for once. I will be at Rosemary's house and we will rip it up as apparently all her family do on Christmas Eve is get drunk. ^^

My head is aching, my heart is breaking and all I ask is forgiveness?

Mom found me smoking out my window yesterday and, what can I say, she freaked.
I'm grounded for a year (like that's gonna stop me going to Rose's tomorrow) and it's not like I'm getting any presents.

There she goes - a little heartache...

Merry Christmas flist! Yuletide greeting an' all dat.

x

Current Location: Arcady
Current Music: P!nk (don't ask)

I cant believe she would do something like this. She's supposed to be my friend, yet everytime she leaves me with a bitter taste in my mouth and a sinking feeling in my stomach. When she looks at me in that patronising, self righteous way I want to scream and pull my hair out, pull her hair out and somehow penetrate her in some way that no one has yet (not even him). Because she's so cool - been there done that - well who's to say that makes you a better person? She knows I love him.

I love him and I wish it wasn't so hard.

In less emotional news - wrote some more of "Strange little pieces" and I'm not sure if I'm brave enough to put it on albion_fic.

Charlotte and Jenn - I sent your parcels today! Really hope you got them.

The weather is blustery and chilling to the bone. I really wish it would hurry up and snow.

Current Music: The Smiths - Half A Person

Lord! Up the Bracket sounds as fresh as it did when I first heard it...

Right new journal. I will probably just be using this as a fic journal, but I may jot down some thoughts and emotions from time to time. That's mostly saved for my deadjournal though, which most of you probably have, heh.

Add if you wish to hear the rantings of a madwoman! Don't hold your breath but the pretty things are going to hell - wanna come with?

Current Music: David Bowie